9922
it's been a long time since i blogged. Usually i just blog in my head. While a long time has passed, today marks our potential 7th anniversary since 9915. It doesn't feel like yesterday anymore, in fact, it feels like it has been a really really long time. During this past 1 year, my life has been pretty uneventful, and it is better this way. I spend more time by myself, and the rest of my time is devoted to my family, even though i'm still a person who doesn't speak much. Covid felt like a thing of the past, travelling has resumed, and i have so far been to Bangkok and i'm trying to think of additional places to travel to. I do wish i could have still travelled with her, just like in the past. I think of europe, japan and all the other places we have been together. The happiest moments of my life.
everyday, somehow or other, i still think of her, and although i can no longer care for her and love her the way i did in the past, i still keep her in my prayers to whoever is up there, and hope that her family and her is well and everything's good and smooth. Some people may call me stupid, but i still love her like the way i did in the past. I live a life of regrets, but i no longer allow the bitterness to sweep inside me. Everyday is a new day, and i just take it as it comes, with no worries or fear.
she doesn't need to know how i feel, and i don't wish to interrupt her life by telling her how i feel, cos i don't think it is fair to her at all. Perhaps she has gotten over it, which is well and good. But poor me, i am not sure when i will get over this. Time has done its part, it has numbed my wounds and healed my heart, but i know i am no longer my former self. In a way, that is better, because i care less about this world now, and I try not to worry about things too much. Just let things evolve naturally and life will whiz by. Everything i hope will be smooth and uneventful. To her, i just want to tell her in silence, that i still love her, and i think about her every night before i go to bed. I don't think she will ever know how much she meant to me
everyday, somehow or other, i still think of her, and although i can no longer care for her and love her the way i did in the past, i still keep her in my prayers to whoever is up there, and hope that her family and her is well and everything's good and smooth. Some people may call me stupid, but i still love her like the way i did in the past. I live a life of regrets, but i no longer allow the bitterness to sweep inside me. Everyday is a new day, and i just take it as it comes, with no worries or fear.
she doesn't need to know how i feel, and i don't wish to interrupt her life by telling her how i feel, cos i don't think it is fair to her at all. Perhaps she has gotten over it, which is well and good. But poor me, i am not sure when i will get over this. Time has done its part, it has numbed my wounds and healed my heart, but i know i am no longer my former self. In a way, that is better, because i care less about this world now, and I try not to worry about things too much. Just let things evolve naturally and life will whiz by. Everything i hope will be smooth and uneventful. To her, i just want to tell her in silence, that i still love her, and i think about her every night before i go to bed. I don't think she will ever know how much she meant to me
posted by ck_ian at 10:39 pm
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