can't write no more

As i grow older, I find that it's getting more and more difficult to pen my thoughts into this blog. A shortage of words to describe my everyday feelings, and a constantly confused mind, stemming from recent events, only makes this worse.

Mandy got a brief respite today, and it was well deserved as I found out today she clocked 2,000++ km within the space of 20 days. That's an average of 100km a day. At this rate, she will be doing 3,000km a month or 36,000km a year.

Clearing up papers and more papers in my room, filing them (just cannot stand the mess) took up almost an entire Sunday.

Pre-tend-ing is an art that few can muster. Sometimes, I find that she is pretending. Sometimes, I find that she is real. It's so difficult for me to trust again.

I do not like reading her blog, but still, I type in her URL despite the unwillingness.

The truth only unfolds when the time has come.

I need to be back at Lake Toya on a one-week vacation by myself...