Should I be happy?
So I made it to Japan for the final interview, and they will be sending me there in about 2 weeks time, or maybe less than that. Am I happy? Haha, logically I should, but after securing that final interview, I can't help but feel a little stressed over it. I can't imagine how would it feel for me to go there for 5 days, and subsequently fail on my final hurdle. That's something I try not to think about, but it just creeps into me every now and then.
I didn't think I would make it to the last interview, and during the 2nd interview, I was already accepting whatever comes my way. And imagine the joy I had last Wed when HR called to say I made it to Japan, only for a sinking feeling to come straight after that as I ponder over the possible consequences.
Pass the final test, and I will be in Japan for at least 2-3 years, working there, doing stuff which I'm not sure I would enjoy doing or not, faced with people from a different culture and language. It's quite exciting to come to think of it, a brand new experience, but it would also mean leaving my family behind.
Goodness knows where I would be this time next year, maybe I might be blogging in some Japanese food store, or maybe I might still be in Singapore haha. Anyway, I deleted all my previous posts as I felt it was better that way. The past is gone, and something really big happened that probably changed the way I look at things. I shall not go into the details here, but close friends probably know what I mean. That event made it easier for me to accept a possible foreign job offer, but at the same time made me feel as if something is missing, and in case anyone is wondering, it's not about love or shit like that, it's about a former family member who would always be in my heart. 28th Dec was defining, on this very day, for the years to come, something would probably sweep over me, and hopefully I try not to think too much.
Do I want to get that job offer? I just try not to hope for too much, and approach the final interview just like I have done for others, that I have nothing to lose and everything to gain. Getting past the HR and technical interviews were not exactly tall hurdles, since I was talking and talking during the interviews, and thankfully the 'dudes in the chair' didn't consider what I was talking as rubbish :)
I didn't think I would make it to the last interview, and during the 2nd interview, I was already accepting whatever comes my way. And imagine the joy I had last Wed when HR called to say I made it to Japan, only for a sinking feeling to come straight after that as I ponder over the possible consequences.
Pass the final test, and I will be in Japan for at least 2-3 years, working there, doing stuff which I'm not sure I would enjoy doing or not, faced with people from a different culture and language. It's quite exciting to come to think of it, a brand new experience, but it would also mean leaving my family behind.
Goodness knows where I would be this time next year, maybe I might be blogging in some Japanese food store, or maybe I might still be in Singapore haha. Anyway, I deleted all my previous posts as I felt it was better that way. The past is gone, and something really big happened that probably changed the way I look at things. I shall not go into the details here, but close friends probably know what I mean. That event made it easier for me to accept a possible foreign job offer, but at the same time made me feel as if something is missing, and in case anyone is wondering, it's not about love or shit like that, it's about a former family member who would always be in my heart. 28th Dec was defining, on this very day, for the years to come, something would probably sweep over me, and hopefully I try not to think too much.
Do I want to get that job offer? I just try not to hope for too much, and approach the final interview just like I have done for others, that I have nothing to lose and everything to gain. Getting past the HR and technical interviews were not exactly tall hurdles, since I was talking and talking during the interviews, and thankfully the 'dudes in the chair' didn't consider what I was talking as rubbish :)
posted by ck_ian at 12:29 am
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